So I guess you can call me a blogging newbie. Scratch that, you can definitely call me a blogging newbie, and while I do definitely have some blogs that I follow, my knowledge and scope of the blogsphere is small… hence when Sarah Margaret nominated me for the Liebster Award, I was like, “Huh, what is is this? Is there a trophy? Do I get some cool accolades? Do I have to give a speech?”
Okay, maybe I wasn’t actually convinced that my nomination meant reaceiving tangible memorabilia, but I was curious… and once I saw it, it appeared to me reminiscent of a chain letter. Take that as a positive, or as a negative. Regardless, these things can still be fun, and a good push for people who tend to be more of a closed book (Hello!) to put themselves out there.
So even after I already had decided, hey why not participate, I had to look up this Liebster Award on the all-knowing Google. Surprise, surprise, it’s not just an obscure thing someone came up with when they had nothing better to do on a Tuesday night. Most bloggers have heard of it at some point… hence why I now feel particularly novice-like. But now I can cross off one thing on my “Steps to Becoming an Accomplished and Known Blogger” checklist. Liebster Award, check.
Does this list actually exist, because if it actually does I wouldn’t mind taking a peak at it…
But I digress…
The Liebster Award Rules:
1) Acknowledge the blog who nominated you and display the award
2) Answer eleven questions the blogger gives you
3) Give eleven random facts about yourself
4) Nominate eleven bloggers that you think are deserving of the award, with less than two hundred followers
5) Let the bloggers know you have nominated them
6) Give them eleven questions to answer
So without further ado, I answer the questions!
1. What is the best thing about your life right now?
That I feel like I’ve hit the pause button. You remember when you’re a little at a carnival and on the carosel? Now, unless you’re a kid who is addicted to carosels (no judgement) there probably was at least once a point where you see everything around you spinning, and it’s constantly moving, and its uncomfortable. You panic, you just want the ride to stop but it’s out of your control and everything just keeps spinning and spinning. Then there’s this moment, that brief moment at the end of the ride where everything just stops. It’s the moment between the spinning and the resumption of the world as we know it. That moment, that pause, where everything is quiet and still and empty where you can for a second just realign yourself. At the moment, I feel like I’m living in that pause. And that space, that stillness, feels pretty great.
2. If you could have any question answered, what would it be?
“How do you learn to love yourself?” Or at least, if not love yourself, be okay with yourself and respect yourself enough to have confidence and be okay with letting others in. Either that, or “how do you stop caring about what everyone else thinks?”
4. What is your biggest pet peeve?
People who take their dogs for walks without leashes. Seriously, though, it’s not just about you and your dog. I don’t care if your dog is friendly, and I don’t care if he wouldn’t hurt a fly. There are other people out their trying to walk their dogs too, and if your dog insists on coming up to my leashed dog who is leashed for a reason, and you have no control over your dog you make not only your dog’s life difficult, but mine, and my dog’s as well. It’s quick, easy, and painless. Let me walk my dog in peace, and leash yours.
Either this, or people that text, write emails, or even essays (I was a grade 12 provincial essay editor for the practice exams, and I saw some scary things)… actually just write in short form. I.E: u versus you, brb instead of be right back… pretend that what you’re saying is important enough and deserves enough attention to at least write out the actual word! AND, don’t expect an A on an exam paper that includes such shorthand, because… seriously?!
5. If you could choose one character from a book to be your best friend, who would it be?
See, this is too hard because I’ve read too many books and can’t even think of characters because the only book I can clearly picture in a pinch is within the last five or so I’ve read! And none of those characters seem to fit the bill. Hmmm… I can’t think. So I’ll think of a TV show instead. You know doctor Maggie Pierce off of Grey’s Anatomy? Yeah, I think she’d be my best friend, because she’s kind of a loner too, she loves crosswords, and her heart is so pure and honest. She doesn’t have a hidden agenda and she’s so kind and appreciates quiet too.
6. What would you want your last words to be?
“I regret nothing.” How cool would it be to be at the end of your life and be able to honestly say you were okay with every choice you made, and accepting of all associated ramifications. Either that, or something like “That cookie dough was so delicious…” because if I’m dying I’d at least want to think that the last meal I remembered and tasted was my favorite.
7. Is there a story behind your name? If so, can you tell us?
Well, my parents had a bunch of possible names. Jessica, Tamara, Stephanie… When I was born, my mom wanted to name me Tamara after my GRANDMA, but my Dad insisted I have my own name. I was born really, really premature, so I only weighed 3 lbs 8 oz, and my parents had tried to have kids before and it resulted in miscarriages. So I was thought of as their “miracle baby”, and the name Tiffany that my Dad picked out actually means “God’s incarnate”, or “manifestation of God”. As for Irene (my middle name), that was my Aunt’s name, who had passed on a few years before I was born.
8. What is the scariest thing you’ve ever done?
I’m not sure what’s scarier- developing an eating disorder or recovering from one. I think the whole eating disorder package just falls into one colossal fear-filled three plus years of my life. On a non-ED type thing though, I think the next one was the waterslides. I’m still terrified of them, as I almost drowned when I was little and me+water= NO, just no… but you know they have this crazy idea in elementary school that the last day of school needs to be fun and take you to the waterslides every year. Needless to say, I dreaded the last day of school like most people dreaded the first.
9. What two things do you consider yourself to be very good at?
Any word game/activity, like crosswords, scrabble, boggle… I have a pretty awesome vocabulary.
Cooking. I think I actually am a pretty good cook, so long as the eating disorder doesn’t get in the way. And my artistic skills (I draw and play music too) really help with plating and the visual aspects of food.
10. What two things do you consider yourself to be very bad at?
Social situations, particularly those involving multiple people. It’s odd really, because I’m pretty good at business-type interactions. I’m okay at interviews and I can do public speaking. But if you get me in a laid back, hanging out with a group of people situation, I have the social skills of a constipated donkey. Yep, a constipated donkey… it’s uncomfortable.
Sports, of any kind. I manage to sprain things, or stab myself, or just fall flat on my face. Either that or the ball goes one way and I go the other… this falls into two categories: both my horrible aim and hand-eye coordination, and my intense fear and hatred of feeling trapped, cornered or chased. And what happens when you have the ball in a soccer game? People trap you, corner you, and chase you… nope. I’m going the other way.
11. If you could be invisible for one day, what would you do?
I would hop on a plane, and fly to every place I could, because you know, you wouldn’t have to pay for the ticket. AND if you planned it out right, you’d be able to prolong that day so that you’d hit different time zones and could see more places in the world because midnight would keep moving and you could hold off on the carriage turning back into a pumpkin.
And Eleven Random Facts about me:
1) I’m a tea junkie. Yes, that’s right, a tea junkie. I converted an almost floor-to-ceiling bookcase into a tea wall… and it’s overflowing. My favourite tea of all time is “The Spice is Right” by David’s Tea… I seriously have at least 3 cups a day and it never gets old.
2) I love chocolate, but I’m super selective. Perhaps I’m a snob, but I won’t even touch a Hershey’s or a Kit Kat. I like dark dark dark the best, at least 75%, but preferably 80-85%. I’m warming slowly to white, but only if it’s really good quality white. And with any of my chocolates, I love it only in really small doses. I’m talking like 1/2 to 1 square. It’s not even an ED thing. As I said, I absolutely LOVE it, but any more than one square and it’s not near as satisfying or delicious. That being said, if you feed me chocolate ganache or a really fudge brownie, I can eat it all and I’ll love you forever!
3) I’m afraid of water. Yep, it means no swimming for me. I don’t know how. Backstory to this is a near drowning incident when I was little, and now it just terrifies me. Bucket list is to learn how to swim though, because I do enjoy being in water, if it’s not too deep, and I’d love to be able to dive and see coral reefs. I could spend all day at an aquarium!
4) My favourite animal is an elephant. Seriously, it’s a bit of a problem. My room is literally COVERED in elephant related things. I don’t know why, but they’re just my favourite. Plus, I’m a pretty family orientated person, and so are elephants as they stay in herds and nurse their young for FOREVER! Side note: Oddly, when I first went into residential treatment it was really nerve-wracking for obvious reasons, and I was of course really wound up and questioning everything. I walked into my room, and right beside my bed just happened to be a HUGE poster of an elephant at sunset. Totally coincidence, but I took it as a good sign that this was a place I was meant to be in at that point in time.
5) I love to knit. This was something I learned how to do when I was in the hospital for months, and had nothing to do but sit in a bed/couch. A fellow inpatient taught me the basics, and from there I kind of just taught myself. Now I knit all kinds of things, and one of the things I’m quite known for is, surprise, surprise:
6) I can’t stand Lord of the Rings. Perhaps now you’ll never read this blog again, and for that I’m sorry. But if there was one series that ever bored me to tears, literally tears, this was it. I love Harry Potter, I love Hunger Games, but that’s pretty much the extent of my sci-fi esque love. And don’t talk about Lord of the Rings to me… I might actually walk away mid sentence.
7) I recently had my first pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks in over two years. I semi forgot how delicious they are, and it was a total victory on the ED front. I even had the whipped cream. #happiness
8) I have an uncanny ability to injure myself. I’ve had at least 4 or 5 sprains in my life, some of which were fairly legitimate (i.e.: I sprained my ankle at least twice running track), but most of which were ridiculous (i.e: I was dancing to Songza in my living room, tripped over my dog, and sprained my pinky toe. MY PINKY TOE!). And my first day of my current job, I managed within two hours of starting, to slice my hand open and take a weeks leave of absence after getting stitches. Thankfully, they didn’t hold it against me. I still get mocked ruthlessly though!
9) I HATE RUNNING!!! I just cannot believe that there are people who legitimately enjoy that torture. And it’s so hard to admit, because for me, running=cardio=exersize=GOOD BEHAVIOUR FOR ALL THE WRONG ED REASONS. And I want to vow to myself that I will never lace those running shoes to pound it out again… because I do hate it, and it consumed me for too long, and just… no.
10) If I could make any flavour of toothpaste, it would probably be banana. But not like that gross, medicine fake banana flavour. It would have to taste like an actual banana.
11) I was known for making awesome ice cream pairings at my old job. Yes, I used to work at an ice cream parlour. And I was known for either coming up with awesome milkshake flavours, or two ice-cream pairings in bowls. It was super fun.
And I nominate:
Here are your eleven, somewhat random questions:
1) If you could create any flavour of toothpaste, what would it be?
2) If you could relive any day of your life, what would it be and why?
3) What is your dream job?
4) If you could have any question answered what would it be?
5) What is the biggest problem you believe kids face nowadays?
6) If you could give one piece of advice to your 5-year-old self, what would it be and why?
7) If you could speak any language (other than your native tongue), what would it be and why?
8) What is your favourite type of tea?
9) What skill do you not have that you wish you possessed?
10) What do you think is your greatest strength?
11) If you could be invisible for a day, what would you do and why?